The Note Judas Left
Cate, Hollis
The Note Judas Left But I knew something, you see: martyrdom required a kiss. This silver was just incidental and had to be offered and taken in the scheme of things. I heard a voice saying: "Do it...
...God knew better, and I dare say he did too...
...But I will be remembered only as a betrayer, never as a player of a role no one wanted but someone had to play...
...What did they think...
...Surely not any one of the others...
...I heard a voice saying: "Do it for the world...
...Neither did my cup pass from me...
...A religion requires it...
...The other death, the greater one, I propelled...
...I will not have died in vain despite my unmarked grave...
...Do not include me among those who knew not what they did...
...Yes, a kiss for the world...
...If not my kiss, whose...
...Otherwise, a story without a cross...
...But you do not hear me, world...
...Hollis Cateate...
...I was the only one who did know...
...That he would establish his kingdom while he was in the flesh...
Vol. 129 • December 2002 • No. 21
