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...Learn, attend a school, become a master of the text...

...Hitler's doctors and Hitler's lawyers and Hitler's scientists had wall-to-wall degrees, they were very bright people, and so were the engineers of IG Farben and Krupp, those who invented Zyklon ? gas...

...There are two reasons for that: First, the act itself is a blessing...

...But Rosh Hashanah has nothing to do with community and nothing to do with history...

...I want something else...

...People tell me that they are bored, and I ask them how they can be bored, observing that they have everything to live for...

...Yet when we put the Torah— which is wisdom—back, we don't sing, "etz da'at hi lamachazikim bah"—"it is a tree of knowledge to them that cling fast to it"—we say "etz chaim hi"—"it is a tree of life...

...But the wiliest angel of all said, "Let us hide it by putting it in man and woman, because that is the last place anyone will look for it...

...When the yeshiva bocher came to his rebbe and boasted that he had gone through the Talmud five times, the rebbe asked him, "And how many times has the Talmud gone through you, my son...

...Is it tz'dakah...

...And if you eat up another human being with your eyes, in envy, in jealousy, in corruption, you think Jhat is not tref...

...If you are old enough to be able to sit in this sanctuary, you are old enough to do something...

...What good is fasting, whose purpose is to make our heart soft, when the home is full of testing and labeling and stigmatizing...

...So he was told that he should see a neurologist, which he did...

...Adam's transgression was that he chose to eat from the Tree of Knowledge and not from the Tree of Life...

...But that's no reason to cry," said the Rebbe...

...They ask, "How much...

...He asked his son why, and the boy answered, "Because I have been playing hide-and-seek...

...There is holiness in me because I can be moved to tears, I can be stirred into action when I see bitterness, helplessness—that is my pride, and that is the answer to the question, "Who are you...

...Nevertheless, they tell me, they are bored...

...Without hiding place, without retreat...

...What good is the soft challah when life has become so hard and judgmental...

...On every other Festival we can hide behind the skirts of the community...

...remove your evil acts from my sight...

...aid the oppressed...

...And they tell me they do not know what they want...

...The question is not whether you believe in morality or you believe in ritual, the question is not whether you believe in ethics or you believe in kashrut, the question is not either-or, but the question is whether you understand the end, the purpose, the meaning, the thrust...

...cease to do evil...

...What meaning has the sweetness of the kiddush wine...

...ah kochi...

...A church is called a church, a mosque is called a mosque, but we call a synagogue, a "shul"—which comes from the word schola, and means school...

...And it's not study...

...In those days, before the motzi, everybody used to take a large jug of water and pour it over his hands up to the wrists...

...SLAdam and Eve fled from before the presence of the Lord...

...There is no blessing for gmilut chassadim...

...There are blessings for apples and pears and for cucumbers and for lightning bolts, but there's no blessing for gmilut chassadim...

...What good is it that we kindle the Sabbath lights, if we extinguish those lights with the breath of quarrelsomeness in our home...

...li I Vo pitch today...

...Take it as the way to answer the gnawing question, "Who am I?" I am a human being who can develop in himself a character of sanctifying power...

...And there are committees...

...Gmilut chassadim heals, but it heals not only the object of its goodness, not just the recipient...

...These are terribly uncomfortable questions, and I know that people don't like them...

...A second proposed to hide it at the bottom of the sea...

...Papa...

...Rather, the function of the mitzvot is to sensitize the character of the human being...

...The purpose of prayer is to pray into your hands...

...The function of the Torah is not to be owned, or to be quoted, but to be used, to be used as a tree of life...

...Or...

...They say, "I will get you there faster, I'll get you there more efficiently, but once you get there, I have nothing to say to you...

...Ours is a society that is concerned with means, with instruments, with gadgets not with ends...

...No, the intellect is not going to answer the ultimate question whose answer we seek today...

...ah yeshuati...

...Why...

...Is God helped by the one way, or frustrated by the other...

...It developed that my friend the Jewish historian was being treated on a machine perfected by that sadistic monster, Dr...

...What shall I say before myself...

...If you look at the Gemorrah Sukkah, the rabbis asked, "What's the most important thing in life...

...But that is not what the rabbis had in mind by study...

...Mi ani: ? ah ani...

...I can heal, and in healing, I can heal myself...

...So take the pledge card...

...Let us set aside, for a time, Judaism as a system of means, or of ceremonies, and even the Judaism that is going to redeem the world or redeem the Jewish people or keep the family intact, and focus instead on the holy self-centered Judaism that has to do with finding my meaning, my self, my esteem...

...If somebody studies not for the purpose of doing something, it would be better if he were not born...

...I know there is more to us than hedonism and materialism...

...If you know of a poor orphan girl who needs money for her dowry, you sell the Torah...

...Two weeks later, 300 of these came to a special meeting to get started with the fulfillment of their pledges...

...Do you want to wait for the elections to feed them...

...1^1 ^How comes Rosh Hashanah...

...While we revere the Torah and recite blessings over it, the Jewish moral sense teaches and Jewish law holds that if you need money to redeem hostages, you sell the Torah...

...It makes us terribly uncomfortable to be asked, "What for...

...We wish them well...

...Joseph Mengele, during the course of his experiments to determine whether there was sensation in the vagina, a curiosity he satisfied by placing electrodes in the vaginas of Jewish women, most of whom died in excruciating pain...

...And because it was painful, the doctor said to my friend, perhaps to take his mind off the procedure, "That's a Mengele machine...

...And I'm not even interested in the recipients just now...

...uphold the right of the orphan...

...AN I FOR AN I HAROLD SCHUWEIS On Rosh Hashanah last, the congregants of Temple Valley Beth Shalom in Encino, California, found a small booklet on their seats, on its cover the word "Passport...

...One of my favorite teachers is Israel Salanter...

...When he was asked why, he would answer, "Did you see that maidservant over there...

...I have children in large numbers from this congregation who speak to me of their pain and their sadness at such darkness...

...And we believe in the power of learning...

...a soul and a character of rachmanut, of erlichkeit, of edelkeit...

...Do you know what kind of people we come from...

...take it for yourself, not for your son or your daughter...

...A mid rash: when the angels heard that God was going to create the image of His own being, and breathe the breath of His life into it, the angels conspired with each other to hide the image of Divinity...

...So we produce our wallet, and our social security number, or our driver's license, or our credit card...

...The ultimate question—the question of identity, the question of where we are, of who we are—that question gets drowned in small talk, or in doubts, or in quarrels, or in drink, or in infidelity...

...But that is also a way of evading the question...

...When talk about Judaism on this day, I am not talking about it in the usual way, the way you are used to hearing it talked about...

...We have a neshomo, and we can find it by linking it to the world out there that has to be saved...

...I have a neshomo...

...How about prayer, about the tallis and the tefilin, the liturgical life, the yearning to be part of a spiritual community...

...Ritual is a means, and to make a means into an end is to engage in idolatry...

...No, it's not prayer that is the end...

...These are spiritual, metaphysical, philosophical, theological questions, questions of purpose, and such questions make us very uncomfortable because we are, all of us, very practical people, and we live in a marvelously technological society, and technocrats never ask questions like "What for...

...That's a Mengele machine...

...Who am I? What am I? What do I stand for...

...There are appointments to be kept, and there are patients, and there are clients, and there are customers and there are investments...

...Wash yourselves clean...

...It sours at a table that is full of accusation and fault-finding...

...The great rabbis also asked, "tocA//7...

...w ¦LV ^LVhen we look at the texts or listen to the preachers, the answer is plain: "Study...

...What is it that they want, I ask...

...Should we tell them to wait for their next vacation...

...He was a man of vast ethical concern, and also fastidiously observant...

...The answer is the cultivation of a yiddishe neshomo...

...we applaud their action and their example...

...I can hear you thinking, "I always said that...

...Take it, and do it, for God's sake, for your own sake...

...Because you can't answer today's question with a check, and I want you to answer it...

...Prayer begins with the trembling of the lips, but it has to end in the movement of the legs...

...I care...

...Knowledge is not the end...

...Beware, you who are given to cerebral conceits, say the rabbis, beware of your boasting of the yiddisher kop, because the yiddisher kop—a Jewish brain—can kill the yiddisher hartz—the Jewish heart—and that is why the rabbis of the Gemorrah say "He who studies Torah, Torah, Torah, only Torah and has no other considerations is considered as if he does not believe in God...

...The radical character of Judaism's teaching is that holiness has to do with morality...

...Who can deny these...

...And the neurologist had to perform a very painful procedure, electrical conduction on the nerves...

...This day, this act, is only a beginning...

...How can I permit myself to talk that way...

...For here is what the oldest midrash of all says, the mid-rash on Genesis from the sixth century of the Common Era: "What difference does it make to God whether you kill the animal by the throat or by the nape of the neck...

...We don't come from a baby religion that makes of prayer a kind of magic, that makes of prayer a substitute for being oneself...

...But Yisrael Salanter used to take just a few drops of water and put them on the tips of his fingers...

...Ends petrify us...

...Twenty-eight centuries ago, there was a prophet by the name Isaiah, in the time of the First Temple, the time of sacrifices and priests, who said these words: "In the name of God, when you spread out your palms, I, God, will close my eyes to you: even though you utter many prayers, I will not listen...

...Our tradition talks a great deal about the fact that human beings are hiders and gravediggers and concealers...

...Make sure that when you take your tallit, you don't slap the face of your neighbor with its fringes...

...There is something, no matter how small, that every one of us can do, something we can do with our very being, and not with anything else...

...And that is why we are taught, "The function of wisdom is to do repentance and to do good deeds so that a man should not study Torah and Mishnah and Gemorrah and then kick his father and his mother and his teacher...

...But I don't want your father and I don't want your mother and I don't want your brother and I don't want your sister and I don't want your wife and I don't want your husband to do this...

...If there is no capacity in our life, growing out of our character, to relate to other people, the house can be kosher, but it is tref...

...defend the cause of the widow...

...What good is the Grace after Meals when we are so graceless during our meals...

...Hi HLt H aybe the answer lies in prayer...

...Yet the sin of Adam is that he eats of the tree of knowledge...

...If we are punished for eating of the tree of knowledge, that means that knowledge is not the end...

...Is there anything that I can do with myself in confronting the ultimate that will enable me to live out my life b'chol I'vavi uv'chol nafshi u'vchol moadi—with all my heart and with all my soul and with all my might...

...The rabbi is saying that it's not important to observe ritual or to go to shul...

...When Jonah heard the voice telling him to go forth and to prophesy to the people of Nineveh, he hid himself in the gray womb of the whale...

...From Isaiah: "You fast in strife and you fast in contention and you smite each other with the fist of wickedness...

...What does life demand of me—or is there absolutely nothing demanded of me...

...what for...

...We're always looking for getaways, whether through work or through leisure, in health or in sickness...

...I am interested in the giver, who pledges not his money but his soul, who when he engages in gmilut chassadim, transforms not only the external situation, but also his own character...

...The answer was no, because though tz'dakah is important, the highest and most important thing is gmilut chassadim, an act of love which is performed without money—not only for the poor, not only for the living...

...And he wrote, "Even when you are in intense movement, and you are doing things for the glorious God, and you are praying with such avidity, make sure that you do not trample the foot of your neighbor...

...We hide so cleverly that when we hear that question, we think it is the bank teller who is asking...

...Once in a while, in a crisis situation, when one has to face the gray walls of a hospital or a mortuary or a divorce court, the boredom ends, the strategies of evasion crumble, and the question comes out in the form of a scream: Where is the life I have lost while living...

...That revolution has still not been absorbed by the world, not even by the Jewish people...

...It is...

...One angel proposed to put it on the top of the mountain...

...Rabbi Harold Schulweis—a contributing editor of this magazine— devoted his sermon to an explanation of the booklet and its purpose...

...We think his message deserves a much wider audience, and we therefore reprint it—adapted to the printed page—here...

...So was the first act: B'reshit bara Elohim—it is only with a beginning that God creates the universe...

...Checks are for alimony Jews, Jews who are ready to pay for Judaism but who are not ready to live with it...

...We prefer to live out Kafka's parable of the messenger, he who traverses long distances until finally, exhausted, he arrives at the palace of the king—and has forgotten the message...

...there is only the first person singular...

...seek justice...

...I am interested in holy selfishness, a holy and divine self-centeredness...

...second, nothing should interrupt the act...

...And my friend and I, when he told me this story, talked for a while about the idolatry of the brain...

...And all these are ways for us to hide from the very first question that is posed in the Bible: Ayekal Where art thou...

...That is why 85 percent of our youngsters who are eligible are in college, 400,000 in all, that is why 10 percent of the college faculty members in this country, and 20 percent in the elite institutions, are Jews...

...or "How" or "When...

...Otherwise every one of our wonderful symbols becomes nothing but dead wood...

...No checks...

...That is why I want to ask that we now strip aside all kinds of small questions, and have the courage to ask ourselves the big questions, the hard question, the scary questions that suit this day...

...Is this not strange for a people with such an intellectual history as ours...

...When we shout at each other, we make dark our home...

...He was suspicious of public piety...

...And there are bored people in the world, in this sanctuary...

...Well, if you have the courage of Rosh Hashanah, and you know the tradition, you can...

...That's not my job...

...Gmilut chassadim means comforting the bereaved, making records for the blind, settling the stranger in our midst, writing a letter to a Russian family...

...s__ the "what for...

...Just two weeks ago I met with a rabbinic colleague who is a Jewish historian of some note...

...Last night, when I spoke about this to a group of young people, a young man came over and I asked him whether he was going to tithe his time and his energy, and he said to me, "I don't have to do it, my daddy is going to do it...

...Do you know what kind of a tradition we have...

...I was hiding, but nobody was seeking...

...I want to talk about it in the unusual and uncomfortable way: What does Judaism tell me about the way that I am supposed to live my life...

...How can that be so...

...I want you...

...The Rizhiner Rebbe, when he came home one day, noted the fact that his little boy was crying...

...Because I know the Jewish tradition in depth...

...Most of all, people hide the question behind a complaint: "I am bored...

...There is no real "we" on Rosh Hashanah and Yom Kippur...

...To be the truth is more important than to know the truth...

...Rosh Hashanah can be treated as we treat any other holiday, or it can be treated with a radical uniqueness, because there is no other time like the time from this day through Yom Kippur...

...And then, "It is prohibited to swallow an insect alive...

...He was suspicious of people who were oh so scrupulous and diligent in their observance...

...He had contracted a disease that involved the wearing out of the fatty substance at the end of the nerves...

...there's jogging and there's dieting and there's bleaching and there's dyeing...

...And the commandment, which is a commandment for each of us during these days, is "Mibsarcho lo titalem"—"You shall not hide from your own flesh...

...What did you say...

...Salanger was suspicious of people who were very pious...

...But the problem is that if you know Judaism in depth, you understand that the purpose of prayer is not to pray...

...There are poor people in the world...

...L'mi ani amel...

...Because if you do, you will daven, but differently, you'll keep kosher, but differently, you'll come to the synagogue, but differently, you will even say the blessings differently: "Blessed art thou O Lord our God who has commanded us by Thy commandments and has made us sanctified.'''' I am a sanctifying power, a hallowing power...

...He was a man of absolutely impeccable credentials...

...There are mountains and seashores and cathedrals and museums, all to get away to...

...She carries from the well on her back a yoke and on the yoke two large jugs of water, and I don't want to earn mitzvot, credit, on her shoulders...

...He was the founder of the Musar movement, a movement of ethical revival...

...ah g'vurati...

...all they know is that they are bored...

...At the conclusion of the service, 600 people turned in their "pledge cards," with the tabs they had selected turned down...

...And I want you to do it not for anybody else, but for your own neshomo, for your own calloused and incarcerated soul...

...So it is, said the Rizhiner, with the soul of man, that it hides, and nobody seeks...

...of sensitivity, of dignity, of care, of compassion...

...Which other people holds that the House of Prayer is holier than the House of Study...

...When I show my American Express card, they will know who I am...

...We confuse identity with identification...

...We can hide behind historical events, we can have our own lives swept up by history: On Pesach we were redeemed, and on Sukkot we wandered in the desert, and on Shavuot we received the Revelation, and on Tisha B'Av we suffered the destruction of the Temple, and on Chanukah the Temple was rededicated, and on Purim we won a great victory over the enemy, and on Yom Hashoah we suffered the loss of 6,000,000, and on Yom Atzmaut we witnessed the establishment of the State of Israel...

...Yet he found time to be disgusted with the swaying, the "shokling" of daven-ing, of intense prayer...

...How about kashrut, about yom tov, about ritual observance in general...

...In the eighth century before the Common Era...

...For God's sake, what do you want...

...Citing the law that it is prohibited to eat an egg in which you find a speck of blood, he said, "And if you take money in which there is blood, the blood of exploitation, you think that is kosher...

...So what is it that's left...

...From Proverbs: "Better a dry morsel—and quiet therewith—than a house that is full of meat and sacrifices—with strife...

...Israel Salanter said it very well...

...I don't want your money, and I don't want your checks or your credit cards or your cash...

...Should we tell them not lo be hungry until November...

...Mengele was a very bright man, and he had a PhD, and he was a great scientist...